An Angel They Sent To Hell Because of An Imposter of Identity Operated Under: No More Translations of Evil, Their Own Crime Is Their Own Consequence As They All Refused Moral Cleanup
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Unknown
everyone. Good evening. Here I am. Okay, let's just get into it. Why the hell am I doing a reading at almost midnight? Because one of you crazy pants is, like, really late. Or you're just waiting to hear something? I don't know. The energy was tugging on me. I haven't done a late night reading. I think in. Confusion, perspective now, in a very long time.
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Unknown
Actually, I've been doing them in the morning. Maybe one of you really is the night owl. So let's have a conversation. I told you guys, if my videos go over an hour, there's no guarantee I'm going to be able to get it up. But, you know. Something here is a fucking disaster, that is the energy, emotionally? Someone isn’t doing okay.
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Unknown
Anyway, that's not what I was going to say. Yeah, there's no guarantee I'm going to get it up because the file corrupt. So I did a whole reading today. This morning. No, I couldn't get it up. I even have a screenshot of what the heck is going on. I mean, I could post the transcript. I thought it was a great reading.
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Unknown
We talked about minesweeper. We were talking about Sega Dreamcast games. What else were you talking about? Someone here is all into the games. I mean, it could be me. It could be you. You put it where it goes. But it was, there was about an hour and 25 minutes, so I'm not surprised. Second chance and ecstasy.
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Unknown
So I feel like this is a really awkward introduction. This is an awkward introduction. We've got a lot of tension. What the heck is going on? I'm not usually here this late at night. Something's very strange, but we kind of like strange. Let's just get into it. Because I don't even have a metaphor. I don't have a metaphor.
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Unknown
I don't have, you know, I usually come here and I'm like, okay, here's what inspired me today. No. I do have the Five of Swords, though. You guys like swords and violence. That's fun. Yeah, some of you really do. Well, different strokes for different folks. We all be stroke and it's something different around here. Yes we do.
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Unknown
Okay, well, some people are really gung ho ready to go about the violence. And you know what? That shows the other side of whatever the side you're standing on. Or it's the exact side you're standing on. Ecstasy. Oh, yeah. Somebody here really likes violent, violent video games. I don't know if it's not violence. Excuse me.
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Unknown
What is this cruel?
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Unknown
Well, you know where Five of Swords is violence collective. It doesn't necessarily have to be, directed towards the violence. Although it absolutely could. Right? Some people. Really? That's just who they are. It could be intelligence. It could be absolutely everything.
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Unknown
Okay, so we got ecstasy in the sun, or somebody here is on substances. I don't know. You tell me where we're going with this. We got the gears innovation. Oh, that's a good idea. Ending. And a gift. Okay, so this was a fucking nightmare adventure. All right.
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Unknown
Is this a joke? Is this a fucking joke? And, today I'm sitting here on camera. I can't read this fucking energy. Is this the joke, or are you just playing around? I got the monsters back there. You guys like monsters? Okay. Wow. So I can't read this energy for shit. Isn't that great? Well, at least I'm honest.
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Unknown
Why can't I read it while maybe we're done reading it? Maybe we're done with the bullshit. Maybe Five of Swords says, let's start fucking reading, you know, into shit in terms of what everybody else is doing. Let's have some fun. You guys want to have some fun? I don't have, I don't I'm not a very I, I well that's not true.
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Unknown
Well I mean it's it's complicated. I'm complicated. So. Okay. We're done.
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Unknown
We're done trying to figure out the strategy. The strategy has been strategize. We got it, boys. We already know what the fuck is going on. That's great. Ace of wands in the sun says we're moving past this shit. And I say that because, like, you see the way home, flip, there's. Excuse me? It's just funny because my head.
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Unknown
Now, really, let's just be a little more rambunctious, shall we? Let's be violently happy. You guys want to be violently happy?
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Unknown
All right. You guys want to talk about video games? I don't know, what are we sharing? Story time. Well, do you guys remember how we used to do story time adventure years ago when I had the all of the audacity? Or it's like, what the fuck am I doing sitting here? What the fuck am I doing here? That is the epitome of my life collective.
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Unknown
I don't do shrooms. Do you do shrooms? I don't do anything like that. I've never done anything like that. I've never gotten fucking weird like that. Are we just having a. Hey, it's a meet and greet. Here's my wand. I don't really know. So. We're going to put that down for a minute and talk about how we are probably done making our existence synonymous with everybody else's bullshit.
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Unknown
You like that? I like that, but anyway, who's here? Okay, we've got King of Cups up right? Who is the night owl? The devil. This is the bad boy. Now, this has been a bad boy. Excuse me. That's not a bad boy. Oh, that's a very upsetti boy. I'm sorry, spaghetti boy. Probably upset that we call him a bad boy.
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Unknown
Okay, somebody here is all up in their feels. In all seriousness, we're not doing too well lately. Well, I mean, I can't imagine we're doing too well when everybody's made you out to be a fucking monster, where it's like you're just doing your fucking job. God, it's not the devil's fault that everybody else is acting like a fucking douche canoe.
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Unknown
And God forbid you're the one that kind of just wrangles them all in. Yeah. Okay, so we got the devil in the nine of Sword. Whatever. I think we're just fucking tired, you know what I'm saying? Here. Yeah, that's exactly what I'm saying. So now that we're putting it together, because, I mean, this is a fucking mess.
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Unknown
I think we were just tired of being face deep and so much horror. Horror is the only way I know how to put this. Imagine being the devil, right? Because we can sit here as well. It's the devil. Or we can sit here and say, you know what? What's it like to be the one that has to constantly be faced with so much, like I said, of everybody else is evil and their violence, and then you are the one that has to sit there and take on all of the burden of making it make sense, so you don't lose your fucking mind.
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Unknown
As I say that, when I see the Nine of Swords, they're all on the wall. They're organized. How delicious, how nutritious. Excuse me.
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Unknown
So we have all the swords on the wall. We're trying and compartmentalize all of the shit we're constantly needing to see witness, deal with. It's like being a first responder. And there's lots of different types of first responders. Collective. Whether that's a paramedic or the first responder of things we don't understand. And that's kind of the realm of being the devil.
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Unknown
And that gets to be overbearing because there's so much, you know, and then you're no longer immersed in life. But at least you can call yourself intelligent and understanding. And it sucks. The fuck it really does. It's it really sucks when you're pulled right out of being immersed like everybody else, is in their lives, right? Doing their thing because you're face deep and knowing the truth about so many people are so many things are how how far?
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Unknown
That violence really goes within people. How far that evil, you know, runs, and it truly is just people and that. Right. It that's still where you're putting it and where you're at. And whether or not you have the integrity, to name yourself accountable for where you put it. So we got an obsession on you in that knife.
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Unknown
You know, did anybody ever consider what it's like to have to be that person that does that? No. Okay, so we're not having a moral of the story, and I have no fancy opener, and I'm not here trying to posture myself as connecting any dots. We are just having the realest fucking moment. This gets to be too much for anyone, and it really does.
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Unknown
And then when I see, I can't help but see those swords all lined up perfectly on that wall, meaning there is just no room to be understood. Especially when you've got that devil next to it. Meaning when you are the demon, right? You are the character. That's the big bad villain. Oh, but nobody's paying attention to who the fuck was actually dabbling in this shit.
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Unknown
No, you just get blamed for being the one to organize it and sort it out. Here you go. Here's where it is. You know, here's where everybody belongs. In case anybody needed to know.
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Unknown
I guess to be too much. Not because. I. How do I say this? Too much. Where? Lonely. It's a lonely place to be. Or I just made it fucking emotional. And somebody. It's just all about being absolutely. You know.
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Unknown
I don't have the words for that. I'm losing my words. Okay? So there is the energy that loses their words and all that fun stuff. No, I don't think I was being dramatic there, because when I see the King of Cups, that's like somebody that's losing their mind over what's going on. That's just kind of like some of us have to just be that reliable thing that can do a very difficult job of sorting it all out.
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Unknown
That doesn't mean, you know the devil that people make out of somebody that doesn't make that they're guilt. That accountability should fall on everybody else that's willing to fuck around.
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Unknown
Because when I see the devil, it's like we already know what to expect from the devil. We shouldn't be surprised. Or, you know, like I said, I'm just pussyfooting around and we're talking about straight up temptation. Maybe, I don't know, you tell me where the fuck it goes.
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Unknown
Because I really. I really don't know. I just know that, like I said, the energy's tugging. Maybe somebody is up late at night. It's not easy being the fuckin villain, isn't where it's like you haven't really done anything wrong. You're just the person that's willing to be accountable, like I said, for making shit. Make sense. But then you end up being the bad guy.
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Unknown
So. Where else are we going with that? I don't know, twin flames. Well, here we go. You fucking get it. That is that simple. It was that fucking simple. Maybe we just need therapy. I don't know, no, it was really that simple. It was like, is there anyone that can understand quite literally, the depths because it is the suit of water, the actual abyss.
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Unknown
That truly is human nature and being alive and all that it means. Like I said, to do the devil's job that sorts out everybody's intentions versus where they're not willing to be accountable.
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Unknown
Only you. And that's going to keep coming out. I feel.
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Unknown
I don't know, maybe I'm the only one that gets it. Tracy. Maybe you are the only one that gets that. Does anybody fucking get it? If they want to get it, it's. There has to be a willingness, like I said, to sit with the devil, isn't it, with a monster and say it. It's a monster. I mean, we all know what to expect from the monsters.
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Unknown
Like I'm a monster. Not hiding the teeth, not hiding the identity. The beast is the one that tells you it's actual name. Everybody else is playing pretend like I know anything about that shit. Like I said up here, audacity. It's like, what am I doing sitting here with this shit? I'm telling you right now, I walk into the place like straight up audacity.
00:15:03:22 - 00:15:18:12
Unknown
I told you guys, confidence is 9/10 of the law. And then when somebody comes in and asks me or said to me, do you know who I am? It's like, and who are you, big boy? And then everybody's like, that's the boss. What are you doing? Oh, is that the boss? Let's find out. It's it's a disaster.
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Unknown
I'm a disaster. Absolutely foolish and a disaster. So anyway, we've got only you and, shared feelings so collective already. You feel isolated. Where do you wish there was? Just at least one person willing to not look at you like a devil, which is see you as a person. Then that think I'm a laughable, there we go.
00:15:48:28 - 00:16:24:04
Unknown
Yeah. I think it's. It's those Nine of swords. They're hanging on the wall and seeing the two in front of the devil where it's like being able to truly separate the person willing to separate and to organize, you know, all of that violence versus those actually engaging with that. And not, like I said, wanting to be accountable with their name on it at all.
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Unknown
Ten Pentacles. Ace of Pentacles. Alright, it's all about the money, baby. If I say anything about sex, I mean the one Ace of Swords, I am I going to have to tell a story. You guys just want story time. Are we not doing the whole fucking thing where we, There was the King of Pentacles, the reverse. That person's a fucking nightmare.
00:16:46:21 - 00:17:08:26
Unknown
That's the exact thing I'm talking about. That's the person that likes to exploit every fucking situation. They like the fact that, like I said, the devil get, you know, the job's done. The, King of Pentacles in the reverse. That's somebody that has emissaries and shit like that. Know what I mean? Look at their fucking hands. Dirty. They're not willing to take the blame.
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Unknown
Venality, mask off. I swear to God, if I see anything like that, I'm going to have to tell this story. And I don't want to. I was just nudged to tell the story. Clinging. Intuition. Releasing.
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Unknown
I mean, it would be too easy to say, oh, we're releasing things that are just no longer good for us, following our heart's desire. I mean, maybe we really are. And that's a wonderful thing.
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Unknown
But that ain't in. I don't know, I feel like somebody here is all up in their family. Feels, in a bad way, and a very overwhelmed and lonely way. When I see the finality walking away from being that person all the time, that role. Because even being that devil is also an expectation that leaves people, like I said, of the accountability they need to take when you are the person collective that can constantly show up and be the one that takes the blame.
00:18:35:04 - 00:18:57:07
Unknown
And maybe we're just tired of being that person. Maybe there's other things in life we'd like to experience that, to be immersed in others and being everybody else's scapegoat. With today's.
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Unknown
So anyway, what else I don't, I wow, I really don't have anything that's annoying. And the fact that I keep saying it is annoying, and that's because I'm so used to connecting the dots. So I used to having to get the information right. The intention this that the violent horror story. Yeah. And then how overwhelming the energy truly is because I make this look good, right?
00:19:26:12 - 00:19:55:01
Unknown
I make this look easy. So we've got second chance. Okay. Yeah. Absolutely. So we want to make amends. Not with the people from our past. No. Make amends with the parts of ourselves that were willing to take on that burden of being in that role and maybe just, do something else with our life. I like that I'm here for that.
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Unknown
Hoping one more time next to see. That's what I'm saying. We're trying to have a good time. But it's not easy to go back to having a good time or even being able, like I said, to be immersed in life. When you have been faced with, that role, whatever that may be. Just even knowing how deep and atrocious that violence goes.
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Unknown
Well, that's not like I said, if we go back to how the reading started, those things exist at the same time.
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Unknown
Why am I doing that? Just twitching. My apologies.
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Unknown
And then, like I said, collective. It's kind of like.
00:20:58:22 - 00:21:29:11
Unknown
Choose your dissonance. Don't have it be, you know, be a thing you're ignorant about. Choose your dissonance. King of Pentacles. Here is choose in their dissonance just fine. King of swords in the reverse. One more strength and the reversed. Five of Pentacles. Okay.
00:21:29:13 - 00:22:03:11
Unknown
So do we want to explain this King of Swords in the reverse? Here? No, there's no reason to fucking explain that waste of space. That's quite literally. You're not going to be able to explain that fucking whack job. No shit. All right. Second chance, five of Pentacles. So now that we've essentially bullied someone. And absolutely demolished a person, right.
00:22:03:11 - 00:22:20:11
Unknown
And leveled them out to almost nothing, now we're making amends. That's what we're doing. But what does that have to do with being here? So lay.
00:22:20:14 - 00:22:31:23
Unknown
Five of cups. Seven of Pentacles in the reverse. Ace of Pentacles. And they here of not.
00:22:31:25 - 00:22:46:12
Unknown
But I can't even call this a learning opportunity. Am I supposed to call this learning off opportunity? How many fucking learning opportunity up? Why am I struggling with that opportunity? Just.
00:22:46:14 - 00:23:20:16
Unknown
To arise? Can you possibly have how many fucking opportunities could you possibly rip through? Geez, life lesson to the extreme. I mean, were we asking for this amount of character development? Was it necessary? I'm not really sure, but what I can say is somebody really hasn't gotten anywhere in their life that they would have liked because they have been so faced deep and sorting everybody else's bullshit.
00:23:20:18 - 00:23:39:10
Unknown
Not lovely. So everybody else can be all fucked up and even have the privilege of being that fucked up and not needing to be the person that's facing it all and making it all make sense for everyone, all the fucking time.
00:23:39:12 - 00:23:58:00
Unknown
Cliffhanger. Because I don't I don't know how to finish that sentence. So this is all around, The energy is. I think we're done.
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Unknown
If people can't figure it out at this point for whatever the situation is on their own, well, they don't need somebody else to blame or to take the attention off of any further.
00:24:19:24 - 00:24:30:20
Unknown
Cause that still doesn't feel right. Excuse me. No, it doesn't. That's still incorrect.
00:24:30:23 - 00:24:56:27
Unknown
So this energy has been fucking with me for the last 20 minutes on a wild goose chase like, if I can't read it, then I can't sort it. But, baby, like I said, I'm prone to sit with the devil. So come here, baby, to love. What are we doing? Why don't we actually talking about? Because we are done collective.
00:24:56:27 - 00:25:10:25
Unknown
Trying to sort everybody else out. Yeah, we know that. That's all well and good. What else do we have? Confusion broken.
00:25:10:27 - 00:25:43:01
Unknown
There's that beginning again. And pride. One more chasing. Are we gonna chase again? Isn't that how we started this? Guys, in the beginning there was light. Now, in the beginning. I cracked myself up. In the beginning. There was. We were on the chase. I think that's what we're saying. All right.
00:25:43:03 - 00:25:51:10
Unknown
When I see the way this man is sitting here watching the sunset.
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Unknown
It's this epic that there's someone who took a picture behind this guy. The person that took the picture behind this guy captured a moment that mattered. And so when I see broken and I see beginnings, what I really see is not very often do we have the opportunity to be considered so thoroughly and what genuinely matters to us?
00:26:21:09 - 00:26:56:05
Unknown
Not very often can we find, back to the twin flame energy. That understanding, like some things are just far past ever being able to articulate? It's like you either you understand or you don't like I said before, when you see this broken mirror and you see all of the jagged edges, it's like you could put those pieces back together, certainly, but you could never account for the dust particles that are are lost.
00:26:56:07 - 00:27:31:21
Unknown
So the integrity, you know, will always be affected. Things will always be just to. And it seems my need to try to explain. And if it's not my note, it's like a singularity within that speck of dust that is fallen out of this mirror that would still be there if it wasn't broken, exists a singularity of feeling that stems from knowing, and that is something too difficult to account for.
00:27:31:28 - 00:28:00:29
Unknown
That is the kind of shit that pulls you right out of being immersed. In life, but also being able to relate with anyone. Yeah. It's kind of like one of those things where there's more of an intuitive understanding, less what you have to explain and more like, you know, the feeling of. And that's the difficult part about this.
00:28:00:29 - 00:28:05:14
Unknown
I think.
00:28:05:16 - 00:28:44:16
Unknown
I think those are the considerations. We would like to be made when it comes down to relating with each other and having a connection with one another, and it's not easy to do that even with people you like or people that like you. It's even more impossible when you're the villain, the devil, and you'll be that devil because who else?
00:28:44:16 - 00:28:50:23
Unknown
Well, who else will willingly take on the role of being the devil?
00:28:50:25 - 00:29:29:18
Unknown
You know, I mean, who else will do that? People don't realize how much, is relied upon. The person that will deal with the underbelly of all of their privilege and be able to face the other side of what exists violently, and then understanding that the Ace of Wands, that that's kind of just a part of life. Because while we're all hopped up, like as I saw The Hierophant on our moral hell compasses and everything, we think, well, I see this tiger, I see this flower.
00:29:29:24 - 00:30:07:03
Unknown
I'm looking at nature. And the truth is, nature really doesn't give a fuck about our moral compass. And so it's just a matter of, are we able to sit with an existence, a person and connect to that humanity somewhere, not to save somebody? No, like connect to humanity, to the fact that we still feel things. Even when we're demonized.
00:30:07:03 - 00:30:18:22
Unknown
You know what I mean? Life goes on the sun. It comes up the next day. The world turns.
00:30:18:24 - 00:30:31:26
Unknown
I just think this is a very lonely place to be. And either it's a place that's understood or it's not, but it gets very tiring.
00:30:31:29 - 00:31:00:02
Unknown
Continuing to not have at least one other person that can anchor into that understanding that you really have. And to explain, because nine of swords coming out like that says you don't want to have to explain what's already a parent organized on the wall. There you go. It's all there. You can see it. You don't want to have to keep explaining.
00:31:00:05 - 00:31:35:20
Unknown
You would just rather be able to resonate. I think at that point. Because there comes, a silence once you've gotten to that depth, once you've gone that far and understanding, more often than not, you just find yourself silent. Not because there's nothing to say. There's a lot to say. It's just you wonder if.
00:31:35:22 - 00:32:12:08
Unknown
That depth could ever be met. Without having to be explained, you can't explain depth. You know, far. It's either you. Yeah, understand it or you don't. So maybe somebody just kind of sit in here, like, okay, let's put the pieces back together and start over. And there are just some things we can't undo. Some things we can't take back.
00:32:12:10 - 00:32:41:03
Unknown
And yeah, parts of us, you know, permanently altered from everything we've had to experience and make sense of instead of being able to process because the burden has been put on some of us to really make sense of things, to have to know that darkness, not to defeat it, but to know it, to understand it, and to be able to categorize it for everyone else.
00:32:41:06 - 00:32:48:20
Unknown
Right? To be the one that translates and makes it all makes sense. There's a heavy burden there.
00:32:48:22 - 00:33:38:07
Unknown
So there are some parts of us we're not going to be able to fix because they're that intricate. But that just means and that's the opportunity for our jagged edges to come together perfectly. And maybe that in itself seems almost impossible. Is it truly possible? Well, you never know, I don't know. That's a tall order. So anyway, so when we spent 20 minutes trying to figure out somebody else's violence again, we had nothing to say because our lives were never meant then to be dedicated towards or with.
00:33:38:09 - 00:34:07:26
Unknown
Tenacious. I don't know what the fuck that means. Rejection. Correct. Our lives were not meant to be dedicated to make sense of somebody else's atrocity. I think it's about time people take accountability. And I know that seems like an easy thing to say or to do. But usually what ends up happening spying divine feminine is taking accountability.
00:34:07:28 - 00:34:33:26
Unknown
Here goes my fucking thought process. No we're not. Yeah, we're doing that. Okay. Our taking accountability is as simple as removing yourself from taking on the blame and then seeing how everything doesn't fall apart.
00:34:33:29 - 00:35:01:16
Unknown
There are some things we have been forced to make to make make sense. Unreasonably so. An unreasonable amount of making sense. And that burden wouldn't be expected to be placed on anyone else away. It has with you.
00:35:01:19 - 00:35:13:28
Unknown
I think that's unreasonable. All right, so what are we doing with the divine feminine rejection by are we asked by?
00:35:14:00 - 00:35:34:25
Unknown
I don't know, you tell me. The Emperor in the reverse ace of Cups. The Emperor wants to be upright. The fool. And that's the beginning. The Emperor doesn't want to be in the reverse. Okay?
00:35:34:27 - 00:35:59:11
Unknown
Oh, that just sucks, doesn't it? We fail to know this, any other way of being. And I say that if you take my example where it's like King of Cups. What the fuck is the King of Cups? I couldn't tell you. I mean, if I. King of Cups in reverse. Oh, yeah. I got a list. King of Cups up right.
00:35:59:14 - 00:36:34:21
Unknown
Don't know where I'm kidding him. Anyway, yeah. And it's not supposed to be that way. So we'll go back to the nature of being lonely. That sucks. That sucks. I feel like the emperor on the reverse here. Somebody we should know. Upright. We shouldn't have this outlook. This was not when we see the mask. You know, coming off that.
00:36:34:23 - 00:37:04:28
Unknown
That's not how we wanted to represent ourselves. That's not how we want to get to know each other. That's not the person we want to be. Especially with divine feminine hair coming out in the upright. So who's been to hell? Well, that's the thing. So when I see Ace of Cups, the fool, the Emperor in the reverse, what I'm saying is, can we try again to know something different?
00:37:05:00 - 00:37:39:06
Unknown
Someone a better experience than what has been shown to us time and time again. When I say feminine energy, can that exist alongside a masculine feminine energy without becoming an abuse of power or trying to be dominant? Or submissive? Not a man.
00:37:39:09 - 00:37:56:13
Unknown
That's what I mean, because I really don't have a whole lot. I don't have fluff, marshmallow fluff. Oh, I have plenty. And anyway.
00:37:56:15 - 00:38:13:12
Unknown
Fluffy, like a cloud. So. Collective. Of course. The horse is a horse. Of course, of course.
00:38:13:15 - 00:38:31:26
Unknown
You've been on your own for so long, it's not even funny. Two of swords. Okay. Ace of swords. And the reverse Nine of Cups in the reverse. Can I make it any clearer? Like we don't know.
00:38:31:29 - 00:39:01:22
Unknown
That emperor in the reverse. And I don't know if it was supposed to be that way, but I can tell you, collective, you've seen the worst of people. The absolute worst. And maybe you're tired. That too, Maybe you're tired of making justifications for why that's okay. That you continue to know the worst. Of something you should resonate with some.
00:39:01:25 - 00:39:11:15
Unknown
So naturally.
00:39:11:17 - 00:39:40:00
Unknown
What? Like we're good at with this nonsense. When I see rejection. Yeah. Collective. You're not really interested in people surface behavior. You're not interested in the shallows. And that's all that anybody's ever shown you, baby, you're diving a deficit. People just. They can't keep up with it. It's. It shouldn't be expected of them either. But that's not really the problem.
00:39:40:00 - 00:40:22:21
Unknown
The problem is the loneliness that comes with that and the lack of fulfillment all around, and how collective it seems like every opportunity where you should have known that you haven't, that's been destroyed in some way. And in a way, I feel like this creates this innate rejection almost at the door of anything that could possibly be coming off as special man, because Emperor on the reverse, as all you ever know is being abused, I ever know is, you know, that masculine energy that tries to take control in a very forceful and aggressive way?
00:40:22:24 - 00:40:53:01
Unknown
It doesn't give you any real reason to respect them. And so whenever presented with the opportunity, like here it is again. It's like you have a journey now what to expect? It usually just falls through with the same bullshit. All right. And we're just not interested. Like I said, I was spying and rejection. We're not interested with things that can introduce themselves properly.
00:40:53:03 - 00:41:17:01
Unknown
Men that can't, you know, conduct themselves properly, people that can't name themselves appropriately. Right. Like I said, the monster is us to look identical. They get along great. We're not interested in surface shit. Like we've seen too much. You know what I mean?
00:41:17:03 - 00:41:52:00
Unknown
Yeah, that's what I mean. All right, so what does this mean for you? Because, like, why are you here? Whoever you are. It's me. I'm looking right at myself. Page of cups, nine of swords. Nine of wands in the reverse. Five of wands. Why are you here? Three of wands. Everyone's fighting the tower.
00:41:52:02 - 00:42:15:21
Unknown
I think I said that in the other fucking transcript. I said something like. And Jeff is texting is war plans. At 9:47 p.m. on a random Tuesday, I was totally out of context. Anyway, that's going to make sense to one of you.
00:42:15:23 - 00:42:42:20
Unknown
Yeah, yeah. What does this mean for you? Collective? It means a lot of people are, in hot water. And it's not your job to try to pull them out of it. Pick them up. But you're not the person they rely upon anymore. You're not their forecast. You're not. They're the thing that's going to keep providing whatever it is that organizes these people's chaos.
00:42:42:22 - 00:42:53:15
Unknown
Absolutely not. And I say that because the Five of Swords came out earlier with the Five of Wands here.
00:42:53:18 - 00:43:19:08
Unknown
You're not going to keep being the provider of whatever it is that gets you blamed consistently for simply being the person that's just doing the job. Of telling the fucking truth.
00:43:19:10 - 00:43:56:07
Unknown
By your integrity alone, of where you're willing to stand. You know what I mean? This is a huge fucking disaster. This is a huge conflict. And it's definitely not one collective you could have ever stopped or gotten in the way of. Collective. You're kind of just lost right in the middle of everybody else's bullshit. And people just kind of forgot about you and it all.
00:43:56:09 - 00:44:28:21
Unknown
This is not who you were meant to be. You're not meant to be. You know, the person that starts out like I said, everyone's chaos so they don't have to confront the evil within their own selves, how far they're willing to go. It wasn't your job to sit in that fire, you know what I mean? For as long as you've had to lose yourself in it.
00:44:28:23 - 00:44:47:23
Unknown
Just to make everybody else feel at ease with what they don't have to confront. Like I said, with their own selves. So we get our page of cups and we get out of here.
00:44:47:26 - 00:44:52:06
Unknown
We get the hell out of here. All right.
00:44:52:08 - 00:44:54:27
Unknown
Damn.
00:44:54:29 - 00:45:29:16
Unknown
So, anyway. Yeah, here I am, late at night. Ace of Pentacles. Eight of Pentacles. Okay. Of in yard redo. Only this time it's fire. I told you, fire season for all of us. Whether you are a King of Cups, the devil, whether you are. Queen of cups. Maybe it's fire season. That's where it begins. Here. Looks like we've been forged.
00:45:29:19 - 00:45:36:29
Unknown
Yeah, we sure have.
00:45:37:01 - 00:46:01:19
Unknown
It looks like we sat in our own hell for a little while, and we actually got something out of it. I see the crafter here sitting there looking at smashing away. I am so articulate right now. That's why I can't read the energy. Because we're no longer that person and we don't have to be. We don't have to sit forever and ever.
00:46:01:19 - 00:46:07:06
Unknown
Amen. And some sort of guilt.
00:46:07:09 - 00:46:45:05
Unknown
You know what I mean? People change collective, and you're allowed to. So what I see is we got something out of being in hell. New perspective. Just about everything here. Is different. Like I said, you spent enough time in hell. Spent enough time being that person that takes that blame. And so when I say King of Wands, it's about starting over.
00:46:45:08 - 00:46:48:05
Unknown
With what?
00:46:48:07 - 00:47:17:08
Unknown
Ignites your flame, your passion. Whatever it is. Whatever it is that actually is worth being around for you and not for everyone else. Everyone else is having a grand old flag time, whatever the fuck that meant. Where's the fun for you? You know what I mean?
00:47:17:10 - 00:47:26:26
Unknown
It looks good to me. Well, I mean, we got the devil there.
00:47:26:29 - 00:47:34:15
Unknown
Wherever things led someone collective. All of this to say. Wherever things lead.
00:47:34:17 - 00:48:04:09
Unknown
It's just the very things that people invested into. And you're not here to save them from the consequences of their own actions. But that's not really what we're talking about. Everybody else, not anymore. And I see that. So clearly. We're kind of done with all of that. We're done trying to figure out, you know, the moral of the story or what was the big crime scene or where do we like we talked about in the beginning with the Five Swords coming out, where do we put another one?
00:48:04:09 - 00:48:36:00
Unknown
Let's figure out where it all goes. Now. Now we don't do that anymore. Maybe we just start to figure out what makes us happy. What do you want to do? What do you want to make? Who do you want to be? We're not here to please everybody else. I'm not taking it. You know, it's better than to come out like that anyway.
00:48:36:03 - 00:48:51:03
Unknown
What happened? Why are we still having a hard time? Because there's an angel, baby. There's. Oh, we got Queen of cups. Okay, there's Queen of cups. We were an absolute jackass.
00:48:51:05 - 00:49:04:21
Unknown
To a really great person. And I'm I surprised. No, I'm not, not surprised at all. Tell me more about this, please.
00:49:04:23 - 00:49:25:25
Unknown
Escaping. Releasing. We're leaving. Commitment. Twin flames. Resistance. Karma. One more apology and healing ups are bad. Let's make this better, shall we?
00:49:25:27 - 00:49:52:00
Unknown
I'm not sure why people resisted so heavily. The goodness of you collective. I'm not so sure why. I just know you have been on the receiving end of so much unnecessary hatred.
00:49:52:03 - 00:50:01:09
Unknown
And when I see this resistance, I see this.
00:50:01:11 - 00:50:36:28
Unknown
Like the bacterias coming out again. Like antibiotics. Like there are some things I told you guys that just cannot be healed. We just learned to adapt. And maybe that's what fire season is all about. That's the nature of when things become so broken, so intricately broken. Maybe we just find different ways of being able to express those parts of ourselves that are that broken, because there are some things, like I said, that can't just be fixed, but also can't be avoided and confronting.
00:50:37:00 - 00:50:54:21
Unknown
And that includes your happiness collective, your passion, whatever that is.
00:50:54:24 - 00:51:08:28
Unknown
I can't like, why am I on the camera? Why am I on the fucking camera?
00:51:09:00 - 00:51:29:11
Unknown
Do I shut it off? Do I just upload it anyway? Because it's doing that thing where like at the hour and it's like, okay, we're done. No, that's probably yeah, we're fucking done. Which we're done.
00:51:29:13 - 00:51:39:29
Unknown
You, baby, you don't belong in hell. I don't know what you're doing.
00:51:40:01 - 00:52:01:22
Unknown
Oh, this is too funny. It's like being tossed into hell. When we saw the Page of Cups that our collective even tossed right into the fire and you thought you belong. But it's like, maybe. What is you doing? Like I said, the big man, boss, daddy comes and I'm like, what are you doing sitting down here? And you're like, oh, who are you talking to like that?
00:52:01:25 - 00:52:19:25
Unknown
Yeah, exactly. You didn't belong there. You didn't belong there. The hell that you were thrown into. You didn't belong there. There are people that belong there. Collective because of everything that they've actually done. The choices they made.
00:52:19:27 - 00:52:39:16
Unknown
Just because you are in a position or you are in a place, you know what I mean of wherever the hell you are making things make sense. That doesn't mean you engaged similarly collective. You didn't belong there. That's what I'm saying. The hell are you saying you're allowed to be in? Baby, you're an angel. You're going to hell.
00:52:39:18 - 00:53:10:14
Unknown
That's crazy. You're crazy. Yeah. Hells Angel indeed. I mean, it's like that. Maybe. Maybe it's Hells Angel. Oh. That's nice. Gang violence. Nice. Okay. That's great. Somebody's trying. Yeah. So anyway, Eight of Pentacles, seven of cups. Two of wands. Yeah. You were kicked down there. You don't belong down there. Strength. Nine of cups. Numbers. I think you've missed out enough in your life,
00:53:10:16 - 00:53:36:02
Unknown
You don't need to hold yourself accountable anymore for whatever. Oh, God. Fuck, no. I'm just. I'm done, I'm done. I'm tired of reading it. I'm tired of reading it for the for the collective. I'm tired of reading it. We're done. We're done making things make sense now. We're certainly not going to go to fucking hell because somebody decided to, you know.
00:53:36:04 - 00:54:14:00
Unknown
Kick us off a fucking cliff. Of everywhere. We were supposed to be in terms of having a good life. Oh hell no. No, we don't live in this perpetual state of hell that some stigma tells us so. Final thoughts? The final thoughts. There's the influence. There's the mistake. Chasing distraction perspective. One more twin flames.
00:54:14:02 - 00:54:39:25
Unknown
So it's one of those things where it's like, Like I said, you just think you're better off alone. You're better off alone. You just go fuck yourself or, you know, call it a day on your life. It's just too fucking much to try and explain to fucking much to try to explain it, isn't it?
00:54:39:27 - 00:55:06:03
Unknown
When I see the perspective coming out over the influence. Yeah, everybody else has you thinking collectively be better off, you know? Go on and go fuck yourself. I got to be careful of what I say on camera, because, you know, some of y'all are absolutely fucked on your mind. But. You don't become a lost soul just because everybody else is influence.
00:55:06:05 - 00:55:26:17
Unknown
Get in your head thinking it didn't matter. And that's the most devastating part about this, is when you stop believing in yourself, because so many people have put you in a role you never asked to be in.
00:55:26:19 - 00:55:41:05
Unknown
So no, you're not going to fucking hell. You're not going to the void. You're not escaping this anymore. That's crazy. That's why, What? Are we not escaping anymore? Oh, we are in trouble.
00:55:41:07 - 00:56:08:06
Unknown
Fuck. I'm going to have to tell this story. Fuck! God damn it! You know why I know that? Fuck. Release the beat. Tell the story. Oh, for fuck's sake. Okay, I'll tell you guys the story, because I was talking about playing games, and I was thinking to myself, okay, if I see this fucking cross the time, I'll tell the truth, damn it, because it's the devil's playground.
00:56:08:06 - 00:56:29:24
Unknown
Don't you know it's confession time? Ladies and gentlemen, maybe if I tell enough jokes, I can get out of this one. Do you know how long I've been in timeout? Okay. Anyway, guys. Fantasy only. You. All right? Let me tell you in the story. Mask. Oh, I gotta tell this story. Camera. Tell the story. I don't want to tell this story.
00:56:29:26 - 00:56:57:00
Unknown
All right, I really don't. Okay, so you guys know how I said that thing? Like, I'm I'm. I said I'm innocent, okay? I have an attitude, but a lot of my situations were situational. So anyway, I was playing this game. I don't want to talk about it again. I talk about it because it's fucking it's fucking funny. Like I said, this one, you think you know a fucking person.
00:56:57:03 - 00:57:21:11
Unknown
So I played this game a long, long time ago. I was like 18, 18 or 19. So I started to listen. I was the dumbest fucking kid, and I met this. Well, I call him man girl because his avatar in the game was a woman, and he was sitting in a whorehouse and he was doing a whorehouse thing.
00:57:21:11 - 00:57:41:00
Unknown
Okay, great. So I used to go there because he put it up as an event and I just sit with him. Well, I didn't know it was a him. I thought it was a her and blah blah, blah, yada yada yada, talk and talk and talk and I just be talking and talking and talking. And then if it was my turn at the whorehouse, like if I was.
00:57:41:00 - 00:58:05:02
Unknown
But I know this is crazy. It's a fucking cartoon game. Shut up. If I was bought at the whorehouse and I told them, hey, I already told you guys to take the money and go like, fucking hot chick. Okay, great. But then it gets worse, right? Because I wouldn't. I didn't do that stuff. I'm not interested in that stuff.
00:58:05:04 - 00:58:24:01
Unknown
And then I give all the money to to the man girl. I had all the money I would get. I just give it back. I was like, here you go. And he was like, why are you giving it to me? I'm like, yeah, because it's take it. So I give all the money back. It's all, well, not backed by the guy.
00:58:24:03 - 00:58:45:23
Unknown
So I find out, this is the man, this is a 16 year old man. I'm like, oh, that's fine. He's like, what do you mean that's fine? I'm like, I why wouldn't it be fine? What's the problem? Like, what's the actual problem? I don't have a problem. Do you have a problem? This is not my first go around.
00:58:45:23 - 00:59:06:09
Unknown
Didn't I already tell you guys the story where I strong arm? Yeah, yeah. So anyway, that's not the part of the story I didn't want to tell you guys about. So then I go and I talk to this guy, this man, this guy, this man for, a year is a year. His life. He was very lonely anyway.
00:59:06:09 - 00:59:25:26
Unknown
But we were just talk and talk and talk as it is. Just always talk and so he tells me the truth. He's like, I'm a man. I'm like, I yeah, I think, yeah, I just told you all that. That's fine. I talk to this man every single fucking day. I dedicated a year of my life talking to this man every fucking day because he was lonely.
00:59:25:26 - 00:59:49:18
Unknown
And I didn't want him to be alone. That was that. It was that simple. And this was me trying to. Here's my good deed, because I really don't want to tell the story. So anyway, so I make another avatar. I'm like, you know, this is a really great idea to make money. And the game. Okay. But his rooms were stuffy.
00:59:49:18 - 01:00:11:22
Unknown
I don't know, he needed better decor. He kind of had better chairs and, like, there, we could do this so much better. Well, he didn't want to do it so much better. I'm like, okay, so I'll just. I made another character and I took his business idea. I took all of his clientele. They were coming to the event like, who the fuck are you and what are you doing?
01:00:11:22 - 01:00:42:06
Unknown
And then I would go in my other avatar and talk to him. The next day, I'd be like, hey, how you doing? So eventually I made a hell of a lot more than he did. I'm just saying. So anyway. So anyway, I eventually I told him I'm like, look, this is me. He's like, what the fuck? Yeah, it's me, it's me, and this is what I do.
01:00:42:08 - 01:01:11:06
Unknown
I don't swear to God in my life. I don't play games like that. I don't do anything like that. I. I was this stupid kid, this poor guy. He was lonely. Like, what are you doing? No. Genuinely lonely. He lived in the Bahamas, and that's there. That's it. I'm done. So, yeah, I took all his.
01:01:11:08 - 01:01:36:05
Unknown
Now, I swear to God, I literally curse. I, Took the money and ran, apology. I apologize, apologize to that man's probably dead. Apologize. Okay. On camera in front of everyone. I apologize.
01:01:36:08 - 01:01:42:02
Unknown
Wait. What am I apologizing for?
01:01:42:04 - 01:02:05:23
Unknown
Why am I sorry? I think he should be sorry. Honestly, he's the one that lied. This was him pretending to be a woman like this man was literally fucking pretending to be a woman. And then he wondered why. It was like, how come you never want to do anything with me? Is it because I'm on Mac? It has nothing to do with that.
01:02:05:26 - 01:02:31:23
Unknown
It has nothing to do with it. It's because you lied and said you were a woman. And so when you lied and said you were a woman, that was it for me. Baby, I am fucking a liar. I are, he's are you telling me, no, I'm not fucking kidding you. That's. What does that end right there? Don't have any fucking integrity.
01:02:31:26 - 01:02:58:04
Unknown
That's it. That's my story. Ladies and gentlemen. And that's kind of the thing that does a thing when we're playing pretend. Instead of being honest about who we are. All of this, say, collective, when you're willing to take on that blame for as long as you are being the villain and then you end up getting sent to hell because of it.
01:02:58:06 - 01:03:27:06
Unknown
And what I mean, because of all the blame you're willing to take. Even if that's just to take the attention off of somebody else so that they don't get in trouble. You know what I mean? But then you end up seeing yourself fucked in the end, don't you? Someone here deserves the consequence. No, this isn't me. Someone here deserves the consequence of exactly who they are.
01:03:27:08 - 01:03:53:26
Unknown
And our mistake. That's when we try to give us the benefit of the doubt. To those. They can't even claim any sort of accountability. But like my story, are willing to fuck somebody over. Now, to be fair. To be fucking fair, let's just get because I am a good person, okay? I it was only because it was like, I feel like he's giving himself a bad name and we really need to, like, clean this up.
01:03:53:28 - 01:04:14:19
Unknown
And so I just try to take the attention off of that. Well, I ended up getting some really rare item in the game again. Guys, I was a teenager and I was like the rarest item in the game. I want it in a in a fucking. I was them giveaway that the developers were doing, and so I gave him half.
01:04:14:19 - 01:04:24:14
Unknown
I sold it and I gave him half of it. So I mean, are we happy? We're rich either way.
01:04:24:17 - 01:04:55:29
Unknown
It's when we protect the wrong people. Some people really do deserve the consequences of their actions. Queen of Wands in reverse would have you believe in. They were worth even a fraction, you know, of the hell you received for protecting them. Then I promise you, they're really not not worth a damn fucking thing. Let that person get abadon not you.
01:04:56:01 - 01:05:18:16
Unknown
Like I said, collective, you're not the one that's going to hell, baby. You're like fucking edgelord supreme. That's nice, but Jay going to hell. Hell is reserved for a special type of fucking idiot that doesn't like to take accountability for their identity. People that take accountability for themselves, and they have the integrity and they can go in front of, you know.
01:05:18:18 - 01:05:41:04
Unknown
I got a devil or whatever the fuck you want to call it and say, this is who I am. This is what I've done. I'm naming myself. This is what it is. Those people aren't in hell. People going to hell. Collective that have earned it. These types of people right here that have fucked over absolutely everybody pretending to be something they're not.
01:05:41:07 - 01:06:04:01
Unknown
You know what I'm saying? This type of person that can't even be accountable for their own actions, their own name, and they try to stick those consequences on to everybody else. That's the kind of person that should be sorry and collective. No, you're not taking their place of what they deserve. This song.
01:06:04:04 - 01:06:16:29
Unknown
So anyway. My life is only that exciting. And in a game.
01:06:17:01 - 01:06:21:25
Unknown
Or when I was a kid.
01:06:21:27 - 01:06:47:22
Unknown
No soulmates. Really saying we out, baby. I don't know where the fuck we're going. We're fine in peace. We're going in the mothership. I don't even fucking know. But what I'm telling you is, Maybe we're just fine in the People collective. We were always meant to be around. Always meant to find. Not letting a stupid fucking cunt like this get in the way.
01:06:47:22 - 01:06:54:08
Unknown
Fuck you.
01:06:54:10 - 01:07:18:06
Unknown
That's not going to define us, say, because this kind of bitch try to set it up. So everything they did defined you. Like I said, those weren't your consequences. That was in your death. But that's the mark. Should have been over your head. And you didn't deserve to lose your life. Or just about close to it. Because a bitch like that.
01:07:18:06 - 01:07:34:28
Unknown
I'm telling you that right now. New life. That's it. We done well, baby blue. It's a great match. It's a really great match. It's a match made and not hell, not hell, no.
01:07:35:00 - 01:07:38:00
Unknown
Everyone here.
01:07:38:02 - 01:08:06:02
Unknown
Deserves to live as they are for who they are. And when somebody ever tried to stick those consequences, like I said, this person right here deserves those consequences. That's not your name. That's not your face. That's not anything you have done. This person can be accountable for their own selves. They don't get to do a fucking body swap.
01:08:06:04 - 01:08:33:28
Unknown
Know what I mean? So there's that new life we good baby we out. Somebody is going to be traveling. And like I said, we are done making excuses for everyone else. Make it. Things make sense for everyone else. Let the entire world go fuck itself. If that's the case. Like I said, we're starting over. Something we should have known all along.
01:08:34:00 - 01:08:56:05
Unknown
So anyone? One motherfucking more I'm not going to be able to get. I'm telling you, if this corrupts. And I spent an hour and I'm fucking sat here and I struggled for an hour really saying I'm going to be pissed. Apology, longing. One more pain.
01:08:56:08 - 01:09:34:04
Unknown
Abandoned. Which I read as Abaddon. I'm telling you, collective, a lot of pain you have suffered that you didn't deserve nor earn. But that belonged to somebody else. For everything they have done. The person that hasn't chosen to be accountable deserves that. Not someone that can be completely fucking honest about exactly who they are. So somebody who's gone ahead and done exploited that pain.
01:09:34:07 - 01:09:41:12
Unknown
Are we done? No, we're not fucking done. You're going to fucking corrupt my file.
01:09:41:15 - 01:10:12:01
Unknown
You better fucking not. You get like, one more minute. It's seven swords. The chariot. Seven, seven, 77 for seven, seven, four, 37821. Bingo. Five page of swords. One more. Six of Pentacles. All of this to say. You've been more than fucking generous. What did I tell you? Yeah. Did you steal? No.
01:10:12:01 - 01:10:40:27
Unknown
This is fucking Robin Hood. Like, what are you bitches on about? This is a fucking voracious cunt. Where fucking Robin Hood know the difference? Know the fucking difference.
01:10:41:00 - 01:11:00:02
Unknown
We've been saving the best for last. What the hell is this? I don't even know for, let's just say, collective. Everything you known in your life has been a fucking fraud compared to everything. You always deserve to know and to live. And so with that said, I'll be back when I'm back, guys. Take care.
